Between Hope and Desperation

Damned be the University of Sofia. Just when I was so strongly determined to study another major and follow my dreams about professional realization, they destroy my wishes. With a cold list of the allowed second major options this year. My choice is not covered. Damn.

It is horribly disappointing to realise how the university  one studies in is so worthless. Here you gain no knowledge and no real self-esteem, unless of course,you pursue those things against all university officials and bureaucracies.

They offer no chance to those who crave knowledge. Money and connections. And I never believed I would fall so down as to admit that is true. Because that is what counts here.

Well, it’s not so bad. Those who are strong willed, erudite and assertive will come out alive and triumphant. They will find great jobs and successul carreers. What about the rest of us then? We better pull ourselves together and scrape up through it all. And keep the hope up that there will be some light at the end of the tunnel. We have to find what we are good at and pursue it, regardless of the administration of the university.

However, my disappointment still stands. To know that there are civilized places in the world where knowledge is respected and people are allowed to grasp it. There are universities where people are taken care of, coaxed and helped. Not here. Here they won’t even let you pay them more money and get a second major you want. But they will take your money for some other useless procedure or bribe, if you are the bribing type. Not me. I can scrape up on my own, but damn they be and fast for me to get out of there.

I just wanted to be a student. Now I am disappointed.ω