Between Hope and Desperation

Oh, it’s a brisky fresh morning with the sun shining happily on the quiet calm world of D-grad and I woke up at home. There is no better place.

These days it is chilly, the weathere reminds of the spring or autumn, but I don’t mind it so much knowing that the summere is still on. For at least a month and a half yet.

I left Sofia in a disturbing manner – with lots of worries about leaving the room to the bureaucracy, and with the even worse experience of my dear roommate experiencing a family tragedy right in the middle of my packing and departure. I wanted to comfort her better, but I couldn’t. Maybe it was because I knew how tough those things are, I did not think I had any power to comfort her. Forever I will wonder if this was a mistake. I will always regret not being a better roommate. Maybe this was the last time I saw her and the burden will always weigh on me. I want to truly apologise for my inability to help. I hope she knew how I really felt and forgave me, because I didi indeed sympathize with her pain.

But during the journey home on the train, I had to let go of the pain and worries of the morning, I had no right to transplant them home. And good thing it was that the sun was shining through rainy sky, with a rainbow touching the heaven and earth and thus calmed me down. Also, I good woman was my train companion during the entire 4 and a half hour jorney. She was a smart, sophisticated grandma; the first to ever be a graduate of the Plovdiv English Language School and of the VINS in Varna(tourism).Despite her age, she was vigorous and erudite, she talked to me about her and about me and it was a great conversation. I’ve never felt so open and drawn to another person, a stranger. Never did my conversation run so smoothly. She helped me with my bags a dozen times and praised me for my choice of major at the University. We traveled through the most wonderful sun/rain/rainbow scenery ever and really helped me clense myself from the troubles.

So now I am home and I am having a great time here. I plan to do lots of things with my time, but for now I am just enjoying my rest. See u later, I am having now my breakfast. Good morning, sunny world!