Problems February 2, 2008
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Oh, the insecurity of this life…A moment of decisive importance is forced upon you and the only thing you can do is wait or run. Not even think about facing it with fearlesness. Lucas made a deep impression on me with his very true words. Work is sloppy and not certain and I don’t even get enough time to do it. Actually it is such a work as to pose the question should I even do it. And in the meantime Jap is seeming so surreal and out of focus, as to make me wonder…what the hell am I doing here??? Crossroads again and little hope of choosing it right the second time around. Inferiority complex peeking behind the Political Structure of Nipponia and a burning doubt as to the point of it all.
A dreadly pressing fact of wasted time and missed opportunities. I thought “Why doubt and hope, better trust and accept” but that is meaningless.
After all, I am not, and will not ever be
1) a writer
2) a painter
3) a musician
4) an actor
5) a philosopher
Nor will I ever have the same past as he does. So why even bother with his infuriating words. But the fact they’re true. If we be sensible, I do not even want to go there. I just want to think on a higher level.
Right now none of my precious can help me at all.
